I AM SHUT OUT OF MINE OWN HEART by Christopher Brennan

I am shut out of mine own heart
because my love is far from me,
nor in the wonders have I part
that fill its hidden empery:

the wildwood of adventurous thought and lands of dawn my dream had won, the riches out of Faery brought are buried with our bridal sun.
And I am in a narrow place, and all its little streets are cold, because the absence of her face has robb'd the sullen air of gold.
My home is in a broader day: at times I catch it glistening thro' the dull gate, a flower'd play and odour of undying spring:
the long days that I lived alone, sweet madness of the springs I miss'd, are shed beyond, and thro' them blown clear laughter, and my lips are kiss'd:
- and here, from mine own joy apart, I wait the turning of the key: - I am shut out of mine own heart because my love is far from me.

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